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These past two nights have been brutal. I became so delirious a moment ago that I said in an email to my cousin, “I couldn’t sleep and decided that it my insomnia would be satiated by some blogging.” Aren’t I supposed to be less clever with my words the longer I go without sleep? Wednesday night I lay in bed until sleep claimed me. I have no idea when that actually occurred as it felt like I’d been watching the clock for hours. Thursday night I decided that now, in the wee hours of Friday I’d put my racing mind to some good use.

After I’d finished up with my courses in December I’d stated how much I looked forward to blogging more. However, with the chaos of the holiday season and with surgery, I spent most of my online time working. A bit of a pity now I suppose. Throughout the past two days I’ve had a series of panic attacks. At least, that’s what I’m calling them. My body hasn’t gone through this in years. The last time I physically felt this way was when my now-husband and I broke up and he moved out for a few months. However, this time is even worse. My job was my life for over 12 years. And although I am not shedding tears for it or losing sleep over walking away from it, my body is telling me it’s all too much to handle. I am supposed to be recovering from a much-needed hysterectomy, a procedure which has left me exhausted for weeks, still bleeding, and unable to resume my regular activities. But here I am worrying about whether or not my entire body is going to quit. Continue reading “The Cure for Insomnia” →

After over 12 years working for the Twin Lakes Library System I tendered my resignation today. I was not alone and to be honest, it was prompted by my boss/best friend’s decision to do the same. Sure, I’m disappointed that it was something that I felt I had to do, but I’m also very relieved. I know, it’s crazy. I’m not looking forward to being unemployed, but I am happy to be starting a new phase in my life. I’ll miss working with my BFF. I’ll also miss some of the nuances of the job but I’m anxious to start a new career.

I don’t plan to remain in libraries. My skill set is such that working in libraries was just a piece of the pie. I know that it’s a very difficult time in our economy (we live paycheck to paycheck so I really know!) but there are so many opportunities to be the best person I can be. The way I see it, I’m not so old that starting a new career is impossible. I will miss telecommuting and some other perks of working in Administration but I think that it’s ultimately for the best. Continue reading “Time to Say Goodbye” →

I didn’t want to begin the New Year without making a post. I’ve been meaning to write while out on Christmas Break and recovering from surgery but today was the first time in days where I wanted to be on the computer. So much so that I worked for 8 hours straight on tasks for work. I’m working on completely revising our Personnel Manual and as nerdy as it sounds, I was in bliss. Doing those sorts of things put me in my element. And so despite my really awful sleep schedule this week, I managed to get quite a bit done on no sleep. I woke up yesterday at around 2pm and so I decided to try and force myself to get back on a regular schedule by not going to sleep after ringing in the New Year. I don’t even know whether or not I’m even coherent at the moment.

Tomorrow is my first post-op appointment and despite earlier signs of relief, I think that maybe there has been a complication from surgery. I’m not stressing, at least, I’m trying not to. My hubby has been really great at taking care of me and keeping me in good spirits. Even though he’s been out of work now for about 2 months, I will say that I have truly enjoyed the time that we’ve spent together. The timing, if there is such a thing as good timing in being unemployed, it was just right. Continue reading “Happy 2014!!!” →