I can’t sleep. It’s an issue that has gone from comical to disheartening. My husband and I both have issues with telling the other no. So, when it’s time for us to both get some sleep… More
I arrived home from Atlanta close to midnight. Despite not usually having to contend with traffic at 11pm, there was a multi-vehicle accident that meant I, and many others, were at a standstill for some time on the infamous Grady Curve. And despite my best intentions and after having had a super productive day, I arrived home with Taco Bell in hand and plopped onto the couch. By this time it was already after midnight and my energy, not at all depleted, meant that I would be awake for several more hours. Sure, I’m now all caught up on my episodes of New Girl, but I didn’t go to sleep until 4am. So much for being good.
Today was no different. I took sleeping into the afternoon to the extreme. After waking up briefly in the late morning to allow pest control in, I went back to bed. I was diligent in setting my alarm so that I didn’t sleep through the entire day. My grandmother’s phone call right before my alarm went off at 2:45pm ensured that I didn’t fully waste the day. However, with less than 3 billable hours on the books for today, I can’t help but to feel a little defeated. Continue reading “A Well-Intented Respite”
I’ve been slipping again. You know, when the bad habits start to creep back in. I still somehow think that my life is just a series of Spring Breaks. What I mean is that I have gone back to the very bad habits of not exercising and staying up until 2, 3, 4 and even 5am. Then, of course, my work day starts around noon and the cycle is set.
Sure, I know that I’m not really a morning person. Actually, I’m not at all a morning person. I like to ease into the day and for the day to start closer to noon. And because I have embraced this I no longer beat myself up about it. I accept that not everyone are morning people and that it is okay. However, last night, er, this morning I had pushed past my being tired and was on the other side of being awake as I tried to finish up a project for a client. I put in 13.82 hours. Much of that time I was working without taking a break. I get into these zones and time and space fall away and I’m just working happily on the computer. However, even when I started to get the shakes, for not having eaten appropriately throughout the day, I pushed on. There were moments that I could hear my heart racing, and still I pushed on. I worked to complete exhaustion. When I finally went to sleep I was beyond tired. And when my alarm went off at noon today I felt as though I had been run over by a truck! Continue reading “Getting Back to the Basics”
The past few days have been a bit of a downward turn from the trajectory that I’d been on. I’ve started to be a bit of a hermit and although I’ve been burning the candle at both ends when it comes to my client work, my personal affairs are a bit chaotic. About a week or two ago I literally spent 8 hours balancing our checkbook. With so many accounts (a lot of debt and making sure that all the balls stay in the air) it can take a lot of time if you’ve managed to neglect them for an extended period of time. Since then I’ve been good about keeping it reconciled. However, what I have neglected to do is what we all fall victim to, taking care of ourselves.
I’ve been in a little personal slump. I know that it’s temporary because I now have systems in place so that I can’t stay in that place for very long. Every day can’t be great and I’m okay with that. I love that my darker days are less and less and that I have enough in my life to keep me very occupied. Sure, I have days where I wish I could completely tune out the world and there are some times when I can achieve that, but right now I’m just learning how to adapt in a constructive way. There’ll never be enough hours in the day but there’s always tomorrow. Continue reading “Going in Circles”