Every Self Perceived Misstep is Not a Failure

You may just need to clean your glasses! Today marks the end of a relatively brief but influential period in my life. Since May 2017 I have worked at Keller Williams in a primarily administrative capacity. My first foray into the real estate industry, I worked with an agent as her assistant for the first several months and then, when that partnership ended I was initially welcomed on staff as the assistant to the CEO of 4 offices and then had other duties added to my somewhat fluid position. Now, 7 months later, it’s time to move on.

I have struggled for months, still unsure of what a 37-year-old librarian and administrative and productivity tools junkie with 2 Masters degrees could, would and should do when she grew up. I started what was my side hustle, an administrative services business in 2011 while still working for the library. My BFF encouraged me to do so, and it was one of the few times that I listened. I hoped to ultimately further expand my offerings as I continued to learn more about admin, systems, and productivity tools. It wasn’t until the day that I informed my current boss that I was providing my notice that I had the lightbulb moment. Continue reading “Every Self Perceived Misstep is Not a Failure”

Finally Letting Go, My Serenity Prayer

The early morning fog and its inevitable subside speaks to my life as it is today. Today is a momentous day. I have a great deal to be appreciative of. The thing is, while ordinarily, I’d want to crawl back into bed during some of life’s challenges, I am proud of and humbled by my actions today.

I’m not perfect. And I’m not a saint. Regardless of my actions, I own them. Today I said goodbye to making excuses and feeling bad about the things that I could not change while being courageous in changing the things that I can. For over a year (actually, a great deal longer but passively so) I have attempted to navigate trying to become a version of myself that wasn’t truly me. In doing so I had to finally let go of a person whom I loved in my life. It’s as they say, some people are only meant to be in our lives for a season. And that isn’t to say anything bad about the other individual, it is to affirm that the life lesson has been learned and it’s time that we both moved on.

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For Every Beginning…

There must be an ending. I realize that the last time I posted to my blog was back in April, an entire 5 months ago. A lot has happened during that time that seemed to meet its conclusion today. It has been a chaotic time, as life tends to be. And the recent downturn is one that I can trace back to late 2013, early 2014.

I’m depleted. Emotionally. Physically. But I’m not defeated. The past several years have been difficult as I have tried to adjust to being an independent contractor full-time. Having worked in a W-2 position for the majority of my adult life, the transition has been a bumpy one. In hindsight, I should’ve given far more consideration to choosing this path. I ultimately don’t regret the choices that I’ve made, but there are indeed still moments of pause. Continue reading “For Every Beginning…”