Website Blues

Today’s dilemma, as there is always a dilemma with me, is that I’m trying to redo several things. First I decided to ensure that I no longer have to pay for web hosting. For the past four years I’ve paid $99 per year for hosting. That’s in addition to also paying for my MobileMe account. So each year I add $200 to my massive personal debt. While not a complete waste, I have been spending a great deal more than I should. On a whim, or by impulse, actually both, I decided to go with a new host only to today canceling the service only 3 days after starting it. I await my refund.

Despite considering WordPress I’m still clinging to yet another Google product, Blogger. They allow up to 10 ‘static’ pages, a lot more than I need but not enough for the easy fix to one of my dilemmas. I need a place for my writings to live that encourages me to put ‘pen to paper’ more often and to be able to quickly and easily compose. I’m considering adding another blog just for my writings and link to it or embed it in my existing blog. I’m also considering posting them on my blog and adding a static page that alphabetically lists and links to them. Yes, I know, I really I sound crazy or that this is all a bit unimportant but it is to me. I love order, functionality, etc. Continue reading “Website Blues”

A Stepmother I Am Not (Light at the End of the Tunnel)

When my alarm went off at 7:30 this morning I was anxious to get out of bed. My motivation was because of the many things on my plate for today. Rather, I was ready to vacate the bed that I shared with the younger Perez. Let me explain. Last night, as we all got into our pjs Margaret suggested that she sleep in bed with me. To the outsider our sleeping arrangements may seem a bit precarious. Kenrick, who of course normally sleeps with me, sleeps with his daughters at their request and his desire. He so infrequently gets to be with them since splitting up with their mother that he drinks them in as much as he can when they are together. Each of the first two nights the threesome slept first in my now not so perfect guest bedroom on the full sized bed and then on a blow up full sized bed in my home office. It was only natural that night three would be different.

Prior to the girls’ arrival Kenrick had suggested that all four of us sleep in the master bedroom. Yeh, that wasn’t going to happen. I already don’t get enough sleep with just me and him in the bed, I wasn’t going to approve that suggestion. That’s what led to the alternate sleeping arrangements. The first night he was anxious to just be with his girls. It was quite a sight seeing all three crammed onto a full sized bed. I didn’t sleep well either if that’s any consolation was my thought. Each night thereafter sleeping arrangements were discussed. On night two Kenrick asked Margaret if she wanted to sleep with me. She flatly said no. I think we were all happy that night. At least, I was. Last night I was surprised at Margaret when, upon entering my room, she leaned on the bed and told me that she wanted to sleep with me. It’s hard not to enamored by the beautiful redhead. I remained quiet for a moment, hoping that she spoke in jest until her father came into the room and she announced her plans. Continue reading “A Stepmother I Am Not (Light at the End of the Tunnel)”

A Stepmother I Am Not (part 3)

Today included a 3 hour stretch of almost one on one time with the girls. As this occurred at my place of work I did have to leave them a few times in order to get some work done. In the time I did spend with them I read with Margaret as well as colored some coloring sheets. When I asked her to sign the first one we did together she wrote ‘Perez’ beside my name. This from a 5 year old. There was even several times where she came into my office just for some attention. At one point she ran in, gave me a hug, and said she missed her mom and dad. It was quite cute. Thinking back on that now almost erases her ketchup stained hands on my dining room furniture. Almost. Continue reading “A Stepmother I Am Not (part 3)”