Author: LaToya M. Davidson-Perez

Right now as I, in a lazy frenzy, write two blogs at once, have only had a total of 8 hours of sleep since…I’ve lost track of days. I think that Sunday was the last night that I went to bed at a decent time. Since then I have been immersed in work. I’ve been in the zone and when that happens I often sacrifice sleep and even time with my hubby just to do work on the computer. Over the past week or so I’ve picked up several projects/jobs on Elance. It has been exciting, overwhelming and encouraging. But I do know that I need to find the right balance because otherwise I’ll burnout. I’ve been working a lot but am still not earning as much as I’d hoped. However, I’m not giving up hope. I have a few longer term projects that will at least help in paying bills. Living with my brother has been a true blessing while I reinvent myself. As many of you know, reinvention often involves being broke for some time.

My current projects include writing policies and procedures and creating workflow for a group, working as a personal assistant for two clients and as of today I picked up a voiceover job. Earlier this week, my first day where I actually earned a “salary” for the entirety of the day, my husband pushed me over the edge. On a high from the excitement of doing what I love and earning some money, I distractedly told my husband to buy something for himself at the store. I’d had some reward dollars and knew that I didn’t need to go and spend money on clothes I’d likely never wear. I gave the coupon on the last day it could be used. By the time he got home he’d not only spent the equivalent in what I’d earned that day, he also did the one thing I always nag him about, he went and picked out clothes and bought it based on the size that it said on the tag and didn’t bother trying it. I cringe to think about how many of the items can’t actually fit because inevitably there is going to be several pieces. Continue reading “Delirium” →

So maybe I am already a writer. I certainly seem to do it quite a lot. Today I have already written two newspaper articles and am now on my second blog post. All total I believe I’ve written over 3,000 words. I found it to be a relatively easy feat due to my interest in what I was writing. I do feel that I often don’t really have a great deal to say and am disappointed most in my fleeting imagination. I have been wanting to pen a novel for quite some time but I can’t just do it. I think that I have an interesting premise but then allow myself to feel overwhelmed and inadequate when I actually begin writing. The only thing I feel I can write somewhat freely is poetry and even then I have to be in a certain mood.

I figure I was on a roll and wanted to take advantage of it by posting to my blog. It has been a very interesting past few days. I have had a lot of highs and lows due to my business not yet taking on the life that I hoped it would. The stress and unhappiness of it all has spilled into my marriage. You know what they say regarding the things that can strain any marriage. Yep, my hubby and I have been at odds the past few days. Last night, although we slept in the same bed, we couldn’t be more farther apart. I know that times can’t always be great. But I also realize that we’re supposed to be each other’s closest ally. It’s awful when your closest ally becomes your biggest enemy. I know that we’ll be okay and even now we’ve cooled a bit, but it is horrible to take for granted this type of relationship. Continue reading “I Should be a Writer” →

Sometimes I think that I’m a bit manic. What I mean is that there are days where I feel so apathetic and others where I’m completely driven. I must admit that I really enjoy the latter. Here I am at 1:30 in the morning and rather than going to bed I have all this pent-up energy and I don’t know what to do to expel it. Okay, well, clearly I do. I suppose it would help if I also took my night meds to help put me to sleep. One moment while I do just that.

That’s much better. You know, I’d be much better off if I took them earlier. I think part of the reason why I’m so excited is because I’ve completed the initial project that I had for my Pakistani client. I put in almost 60 hours working on rewriting and creating documentation, improving workflow, creating policies and procedures where there was none and essentially flexed my administrative muscle in the process. After leaving my career in public library administration in February I felt I needed to throw myself into a project that allowed me to utilize the skill set that I enjoy the most. And so I labored for the past two weeks on what I believe is a monumental final project. I created spreadsheets with slightly sophisticated formulas (only slightly because it has been a little while since I’ve gotten into the really hard stuff) and am even planning on assisting the client long-term. At least, I hope to as now I’m running into the possible issue of having too many projects going on. Well, let me dial that back a bit and explain. Continue reading “I Should be Asleep” →