Author: LaToya M. Davidson-Perez

I’ve been slipping again. You know, when the bad habits start to creep back in. I still somehow think that my life is just a series of Spring Breaks. What I mean is that I have gone back to the very bad habits of not exercising and staying up until 2, 3, 4 and even 5am. Then, of course, my work day starts around noon and the cycle is set.

Sure, I know that I’m not really a morning person. Actually, I’m not at all a morning person. I like to ease into the day and for the day to start closer to noon. And because I have embraced this I no longer beat myself up about it. I accept that not everyone are morning people and that it is okay. However, last night, er, this morning I had pushed past my being tired and was on the other side of being awake as I tried to finish up a project for a client. I put in 13.82 hours. Much of that time I was working without taking a break. I get into these zones and time and space fall away and I’m just working happily on the computer. However, even when I started to get the shakes, for not having eaten appropriately throughout the day, I pushed on. There were moments that I could hear my heart racing, and still I pushed on. I worked to complete exhaustion. When I finally went to sleep I was beyond tired. And when my alarm went off at noon today I felt as though I had been run over by a truck! Continue reading “Getting Back to the Basics” →

The past few days have been a bit of a downward turn from the trajectory that I’d been on. I’ve started to be a bit of a hermit and although I’ve been burning the candle at both ends when it comes to my client work, my personal affairs are a bit chaotic. About a week or two ago I literally spent 8 hours balancing our checkbook. With so many accounts (a lot of debt and making sure that all the balls stay in the air) it can take a lot of time if you’ve managed to neglect them for an extended period of time. Since then I’ve been good about keeping it reconciled. However, what I have neglected to do is what we all fall victim to, taking care of ourselves.

I’ve been in a little personal slump. I know that it’s temporary because I now have systems in place so that I can’t stay in that place for very long. Every day can’t be great and I’m okay with that. I love that my darker days are less and less and that I have enough in my life to keep me very occupied. Sure, I have days where I wish I could completely tune out the world and there are some times when I can achieve that, but right now I’m just learning how to adapt in a constructive way. There’ll never be enough hours in the day but there’s always tomorrow. Continue reading “Going in Circles” →

It started on Monday evening. I felt it creep in like the fog that it was on my mind. By Tuesday I was bedridden. I could not function and I was in despair. In the past, my BFF (who was also my boss) would allow me to retreat into solitude for a few days. Now, I’ve had to develop better coping mechanisms and skills. Gone are the days of being a hermit, I can afford maybe one day or so before I have to dig deep and propel myself forward. Was it because I’d not worked out since Friday or was it just simply another one of my low points? Today I began re-emerging from the fog.

I’d managed to also miss two days of taking my antidepressants and communication issues between myself and my hubby only seemed to exacerbate an already stressful time. What I’ve learned to do is not to always fight the lows. I used to become so much angrier when my moods dipped. With age and experience, I know that the only way to deal with it is simply to ride it out. I’ve accepted that there will simply be days where I have to stay to myself and by myself. I have to do nothing and allow myself the time to heal. If you listen closely, bad days can also be a result of your mind and/or body telling you that there is something else that’s wrong. Continue reading “Into Darkness” →