LaToya M. Davidson-Perez

There are moments in my life where I wish I could be more like Spock. Yes, I’m a little bit of a Trekkie. I suppose I should want to be more like his father’s species, Vulcan. Intelligent, practical, logical and without the interference of emotion. That isn’t to say that I would be emotionless, I’d just be more rational and act more rationally. It’s interesting to me how often times in science fiction the protagonist is always trying to save the human race. Let’s be honest, we’re nuts. To be human is to be imperfect. To be human is to sometimes be without rhyme or reason.

I recently made the mistake of letting a former friend and flame back into my life. I really should have known better as his actions over the years have only shown me that the concern, love, and respect felt was only felt by me for him. It makes me so angry to be human and to have the strong emotions of disappointment, anguish, and even resentment. I would not choose to love this person, and yet, I always will. While we can’t choose how we feel I know that we can choose what we do and how we outwardly let the person affect you. Because let’s be real, our emotions at their core is not something that can be controlled. They’re innate and carnal. Suppressed or even masked, yes, we can change that but we can’t change what we feel in our core. I know that I’m supposedly giving this person power over me and my emotions but being human, that’s what happens. Continue reading “What Would Spock Do?” →

Steve Jobs, the man synonymously linked with Apple Computers, passed away today. It was a bit odd, really, the moment that I saw it splash across the social media world. I had actually briefly visited Apple’s site only moments before they changed its homepage. It was literally only yesterday when Apple announced it’s upcoming new releases. And it was only a month or so since Steve Jobs said, “I have always said if there ever came a day when I could no longer meet my duties and expectations as Apple’s CEO, I would be the first to let you know. Unfortunately, that day has come.” It hurts my heart to know that at the age of 56 the world has lost a true visionary. Where would we all be had it not been for the introduction of the Apple II in 1977? The iPod and iTunes in the 2000s? The iPhone in 2007? The iPad in 2010? Continue reading “Simplifying the Complex, Thanks Steve Jobs” →

I’m in one of those moods. You know it, when you feel as though the glass is more than half empty. You look at the glass and it appears that there’s not enough liquid to quench anyone’s thirst. Maybe it’s the time of year, day, or week. Lately I’ve felt like such a loser. My wardrobe seems to have shrunken and so has my pocketbook.

My weight fluctuates dramatically throughout the year. It drives me crazy! I’m not one for rotating wardrobes and yet it seems as though I’ve forgotten about it when it comes to my wardrobe’s contents. Each morning I walk into my walk-in closet and consider which items fit my current frame. My mom has always emphasized the importance of covering one’s unmentionables, fat rolls. That’s increasingly harder to do since I purged most of my last ‘fat’ wardrobe. And with no money to buy any new items I must be creative. The thing is, I’m not even desirous of shopping. I think it has more to do with the lack of money.

The lack of money and the frustration in not knowing where to earn more will suck the love or desire out of anything. With a demanding full-time job and the stresses of finances I’m now reconsidering doing an administrative services venture. I’m not sure if I can or want to do it anymore.

I want scream, to cry, to disappear but I’m too tired for even that. I know I should just breathe, something that easy shouldn’t be so hard.