LaToya M. Davidson-Perez

I woke up this morning in a panic attack. I liken it to the feeling of being under water and then all of a sudden realizing that you need to breath. My hubby rolled over and pulled the covers off me and the cold air jolted me out of my slumber. I finally fell asleep at around 5am and was awake before 10am. The attack lasted for a full 30 minutes. It was so bad that I had to contact my PCP and my psychiatrist. With a prescription quickly phoned in, I opted not to take it until later. With little sleep I didn’t need something that would take me out of commission. After all, it was a big day. I went to the office for a few hours. Seeing my boss so ostracized was difficult. Okay, really, he was in his office as he usually is but the tone was clearly different. With the news of our departure we quickly became the outsiders of a once tight-knit group.

I sat with him a while, comfortable occupying the space we’d shared for over 7 years. In the chaos of everything being with my best friend was calming. We reminisced about the past, virtually all of the current staff unaware of the obstacles we had to make it to where we are…where we were. It’s just time for a change. It’s just too bad that this is a road my best friend and I must go alone. Continue reading “Timing is Everything” →

These past two nights have been brutal. I became so delirious a moment ago that I said in an email to my cousin, “I couldn’t sleep and decided that it my insomnia would be satiated by some blogging.” Aren’t I supposed to be less clever with my words the longer I go without sleep? Wednesday night I lay in bed until sleep claimed me. I have no idea when that actually occurred as it felt like I’d been watching the clock for hours. Thursday night I decided that now, in the wee hours of Friday I’d put my racing mind to some good use.

After I’d finished up with my courses in December I’d stated how much I looked forward to blogging more. However, with the chaos of the holiday season and with surgery, I spent most of my online time working. A bit of a pity now I suppose. Throughout the past two days I’ve had a series of panic attacks. At least, that’s what I’m calling them. My body hasn’t gone through this in years. The last time I physically felt this way was when my now-husband and I broke up and he moved out for a few months. However, this time is even worse. My job was my life for over 12 years. And although I am not shedding tears for it or losing sleep over walking away from it, my body is telling me it’s all too much to handle. I am supposed to be recovering from a much-needed hysterectomy, a procedure which has left me exhausted for weeks, still bleeding, and unable to resume my regular activities. But here I am worrying about whether or not my entire body is going to quit. Continue reading “The Cure for Insomnia” →

After over 12 years working for the Twin Lakes Library System I tendered my resignation today. I was not alone and to be honest, it was prompted by my boss/best friend’s decision to do the same. Sure, I’m disappointed that it was something that I felt I had to do, but I’m also very relieved. I know, it’s crazy. I’m not looking forward to being unemployed, but I am happy to be starting a new phase in my life. I’ll miss working with my BFF. I’ll also miss some of the nuances of the job but I’m anxious to start a new career.

I don’t plan to remain in libraries. My skill set is such that working in libraries was just a piece of the pie. I know that it’s a very difficult time in our economy (we live paycheck to paycheck so I really know!) but there are so many opportunities to be the best person I can be. The way I see it, I’m not so old that starting a new career is impossible. I will miss telecommuting and some other perks of working in Administration but I think that it’s ultimately for the best. Continue reading “Time to Say Goodbye” →