Author: LaToya M. Davidson-Perez

It’s now March and I have no resolutions and no list either. I’m sure at some point I did. It seems, as is so often the case these days that time truly waits for no one and I’m struggling just to keep up. Now it hasn’t been a dreadful year by any stretch of the imagination. This is after all March Madness! In my weary hands is a new iPad (1st generation) that was gifted to me, inside my garage is a brand new car with 7 years of pre-paid service (actually it’s built into the financing), and nestled beside me peacefully snoring is the man who one day might… well, you get the picture. Despite my mounting debt and hellacious days and nights at work, there’s a lot to be thankful and appreciative for.

As this is March Madness I’d be remiss if I didn’t mention my trip to the emergency room and several different doctors appointments. I even have one in a matter of hours and another tomorrow. Whether it be mental, physical, psychological or whatever, something always seems to ail me. I take so much of life so seriously. That’s my nature. I’m naturally a perfectionist and my compulsion, my gift and my curse, slowly chisels away at me. I’m but only 30 and yet I feel as though these tired bones need a rest. Continue reading “Still No Resolution” →

There is now a weariness to me. I feel haggard, tired, like someone drowning without a life preserver. Barry has reminded me that there have been a few times in my past where I have felt this way, so unhappy with my job and my life that I become ready to walk away from it all, hang up the librarian bun and glasses and move on to greener pastures. I know he’s right. He generally is when it comes to me and my moods. However, I do feel physically different this time around. The stress of it all has taken its toll over the years and as I grow older I am less and less able to effectively handle it. I know that I’m exacting and that I can be very demanding of myself and others and extremely critical. However, I am a firm believer in ensuring that you should always strive to put your best foot forward. However, that task can be the most challenging part of ones day!

Am I the only one who wishes they had one more day off?! Yes, these two days were unexpected but man did I enjoy it! I know that the Atlanta area has at least another day and my poor parents are ‘stuck’ in California, but I suppose I’m just dreading getting back to the real world. I truly enjoyed the beautiful snow…from inside my bedroom. Nope, no playing in the snow for me. I poked my head outside briefly to take two photos but that was it. I was content to be cozy and warm inside. I got some reading done, extra sleep, and nothing else really except for watching my DVR. So look out soggy world, I’m ready for you…maybe.