There is now a weariness to me. I feel haggard, tired, like someone drowning without a life preserver. Barry has reminded me that there have been a few times in my past where I have felt this way, so unhappy with my job and my life that I become ready to walk away from it all, hang up the librarian bun and glasses and move on to greener pastures. I know he’s right. He generally is when it comes to me and my moods. However, I do feel physically different this time around. The stress of it all has taken its toll over the years and as I grow older I am less and less able to effectively handle it. I know that I’m exacting and that I can be very demanding of myself and others and extremely critical. However, I am a firm believer in ensuring that you should always strive to put your best foot forward. However, that task can be the most challenging part of ones day!