What’s Your Resolution?

Am I the only one who has not yet written down my New Years Resolutions? I’m of course talking to those who actually take them seriously. That would most assuredly exclude you, Barry. I do buy into all of that stuff not because it’s some arbitrary time for people to set unrealistic and unattainable goals but because it gives you a significant starting point. Although the list is not yet written I have come up with financial and personal goals. My mantra this year is, “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” The thing is, I wish my stress level agreed with that. So much has already happened in the first ten days that has certainly ensured that I’ll adhere to my mantra but my stress level is beyond words.

I’m watching as things at work reach a whole new level of crazy. Facility closings, staffing changes, public perceptions, etc. Then there’s home life. While I have a wonderful man in my life we’re both so busy that often times taking care of the house is very far down on the list. I’m grateful all the same, I really have so much to be happy and appreciative of. I know that I must take baby steps, breathe, and try not to stress too much. So as I ‘enjoy’ another snow day tomorrow I hope to finally make that list I have meant to and begin working on it one day at a time. I did at least streamline my website again. Check it out, http://www.latoyadavidson.com.

Turning 30 Again!

So, here I am, relaxing in the passenger side of what is ‘our’ Princess or ‘our’ Red as Kenrick likes to put it. This is the first time I’m going to attempt to hammer out a blog post using my new iPhone keyboard and the BlogPress application. Kenrick has foolishly agreed to drive the entire distance from Port Canaveral, FL to Covington, GA. All I have to do is give him $250,000 in Zynga Poker chips. Sigh, if only he’d taken $1 million in lieu of having frivolously spending it at the casino on the ship. Oh well, it’s just money, right? And in the new year, as Jamaicans would say, ‘fi we free paypa bun!’

Yesterday was the big event, I officially turned 30. I say officially because I have long acted like a person whose 20s were long behind them. In many ways I feel even older than my beau who age is truly a number. At the ripe age of 46 he neither looks it, feels it, or acts like it. Is it bad that I feel as though my ‘best’ years are behind me? Hopefully it’s not my most financially lucrative.

One can’t help but to take some time on a birthday, and a significant one, to reflect on their life. I realized that while I may not be where I thought I’d be (married with children), I’m exactly where I should be. I’ve spent a lot of time wondering and worrying about where my life should be and less on where it is and accepting and enjoying it for what it is and what it’s not. Having Kenrick in my life has brought so much change in perspective and views. It’s often easy to say, without being put into a situation, what it is you will and won’t do. You often find that theory and practice is quite different. I’m not saying that I’m a different person but I am saying that in a lot of ways I’m not the person I was 6 months ago.

I look out at the road ahead of me, both figuratively and literally, and I think about the experiences of my past, life as it currently is, and the mystery that lay ahead in the next chapters of my life.