There must be an ending. I realize that the last time I posted to my blog was back in April, an entire 5 months ago. A lot has happened during that time that seemed to meet its conclusion today. It has been a chaotic time, as life tends to be. And the recent downturn is one that I can trace back to late 2013, early 2014.
I’m depleted. Emotionally. Physically. But I’m not defeated. The past several years have been difficult as I have tried to adjust to being an independent contractor full-time. Having worked in a W-2 position for the majority of my adult life, the transition has been a bumpy one. In hindsight, I should’ve given far more consideration to choosing this path. I ultimately don’t regret the choices that I’ve made, but there are indeed still moments of pause.
From challenges in my professional life to those in my personal life, the road has been rocky and arduous. All that is to say, life can be hard and sometimes unfair. I’m in a pain point right now, and I endeavor to remain as optimistic as possible, believing that everything happens in its own time and for a reason even when we have no clue what those reasons are.
Are my best years now behind me? Or will there still be a few more shining moments to come? I honestly don’t know. I look out into the distance, unclear about what tomorrow will bring but know that the climb is not yet over. Knowing also that for every up, there is a down, and for every happiness, there will be challenges in life that we must bear.
Whether it’s in finally saying goodbye to someone you loved (but was a toxic situation) or finding and losing a professional opportunity (or two), the one thing that life promises is that it won’t always be easy, but it will always be life.