Every time I crack the door,
You slither your way back in.
Always to toy with my emotions,
And play deep beneath my skin.
With age is supposed to come wisdom,
Not true in reference to you.
With 29-year-old eyes I still view you,
Again and again, I let you creep your way back in.
You want to know you’re wanted,
All these years later still.
Yes, unrequited passions,
Lingers for you still.
Our paths will never cross again,
I’ve made sure that they won’t.
Because I understand what I am to you,
And to you, I’m just a joke.
Whenever you wanted to wield control,
On my door, you’d always knock.
Naively I would let you in,
You’d ravage me non-stop.
I always think that somehow you’ve changed,
But that reality is never true.
The one that I’m now left with,
Is the reality without you.
It’s what’s humane and necessary,
Like a dog, you’ve put down.
You’re not the person I envisioned,
You will never be the one.
I’ll love the thought of you for a lifetime,
Our shared memories I will always treasure.
But I’ve blocked you for a reason,
Because I’ll always love myself better.